Hi All!!
Long time no talk. Life has been hectic recently, although there is no need to fear because my brain has continued to work tirelessly so there is lots of content to come. With post-grad looming overhead, I have found myself daydreaming about my future life. How wonderful it will be to live in a big city, have a big girl job of whatever breed, and just a whole new chapter. I have always lived my life fantasizing the future, in middle school I couldn’t wait to go to prom, in high school I dreamed of where I would be today, and here I am again living a fairytale life in San Luis Obispo, but still fantasizing about what’s next. I think there is something beautiful and remarkable about my capacity to hold reassuring feelings for my future, but I need to keep it at arm’s length because I truly am living a life I dreamed of just four years ago, right now.
I am so used to setting goals, and I think we are all used to the feeling of want. I will have the life of my dreams if I get into reading more, I will be happy when my old pair of jeans fit again, Once I finish this boring class I will love school again, all these conditional statements for happiness. I think we have been instilled to long for things, although when is happiness conditional? I don’t think really ever. The wanting is endless. There are so many things I want that I will never have all of them. If I think like this, happiness is something I will always be chasing but never achieve. I think it is a mindset. So many people have stated the importance of gratitude, waking up and writing merely three things you are grateful for. Which I have done and agreed with, but I have been struck with an epiphany as to why gratitude is so powerful. It is because it switches your mindset from manifesting (I want this), to I have this, and “this” is everything I could possibly need.
Again, I am not trying to belittle the wonderful state of longing because I also think it is important, and am an avid daydreamer. But it isn’t healthy to live your head in the clouds of what your future may (but probably won’t) look like. At the end of the day, that is a fantasy land which has no two legs where we are right now. Yes, my life would be pretty great if I worked my dream job in Merchandising in New York, and yes I am going to work towards that. But guess what, my life is pretty damn awesome right now. I do dream work of nannying for two wonderful families. I live 15 minutes from the beach with five of my best friends. I live in a house with the most stunning view and backyard. I don’t have to stress about paying my rent. I have people who care about me more than I even know. My life is exactly how I manifested it to be four years ago.
It is important to step down from the clouds and treasure the time we are in right now. Actually, we aren’t even stepping down from the clouds, we are in them. We are in the place we once dreamed of. We need to start living it that way. (we as in me, who knows maybe you already do this, and then I am proud of you). You have all the tools to have a great life inside of you right now. Nothing will bring you happiness except a mindset shift. Here are some beautiful people and places I am grateful for:


Like are you kidding, look at all of this amazingness I get to experience???? Now I am feeling fired up and ready to start this wonderful day!!
XOXO,
Kami
I love getting these little snippets inside ur brain. U are nothing short of perfection and i am so thankful to know u